"Something becomes something else...and then something else...and then something else... This is life. This is art."
Why this Art? Why 'Alive Inside'? (explore my art here)
For me, a large part of my life has been in the space between. And in that space I have felt lost, floaty, desperate, confused, overjoyed, turbulent, moved, ecstatic and vibrant.
A large part of my existence has been a full and beautiful circle of honouring the parts of me that make me - me.
One of those large parts is my anxiety.
My anxiety comes like waves inside of my body.
It doesn't take anything away, it doesn't stop my heart or breath like it has made me feel it can do...
It just exists, inside. It is a visceral experience.
Aside from the magical journey I have went on with mindfulness, meditation, self compassion and mental health external supports - I found art.
Or, better explained: it found me.
We reconnected. LIke a soul collision of colours, expression, magic, and feeling.
A plant based journey allowed me to open up space for large tsunami's of anxiety to flood in, and for me to challenge myself to navigate new paths to work with it.
Here was where I began to paint. It was mostly just paint on the paper at first, and feeling out my feelings with a paintbrush in my hand - rather than just words in my mouth, or thoughts in my head.
And that beautiful journey continued to flow for years to follow.
A lot has moved and changed along my art expression adventure. Which is the course for what I believe all of life to be: "something becomes something else...and then something else...and then something else..." Always shifting. Always transfmoring.
But one very special thing has remained beautiful, and consistent.
This time, this art space, all began inside of something. It was alive, even when it was sheltered by a cocoon. Even while it was growing. And while it was changing and morphing.
It was happening Inside of the Chrysalis of life. This art has always been Alive Inside, waiting to come out.
I believe we are all this way - and that we all spend time being the catepillar of our existence until we gently move into an incubation period of healing, growing, and love. I believe we dont realize how Alive we are Inside until we arrive in this space. And I believe the transformational Caterpillar, Chrysalis, Butterfly process - becomes it's own becoming. And it all happens in the dark of the Chrysalis. "Everything that has ever been born, has grown in the dark." - Dominique Christina
And before we know it, we all become something...
That becomes something else...
And then something else...
And then something else...
Constantly becoming and unfolding.
This is life, this is art.
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